I finally settled on a blog title, yay! I've decided to base the title on Proverbs 31:25 - "She is clothed with strength and dignity, and she laughs without fear of the future." Most of Proverbs 31 is about what a good wife looks like, so I thought including something from it in my blog title would be appropriate. I'm a worrier, a person who stresses out easily about things that are out of my control, whether it be circumstances or people's opinions of me. Can any of you relate? It's one of the top three things that I would like to change about myself, so I am dedicating this blog to my personal pursuit of happiness...or at least the pursuit of more peace in my life. I'm hoping you, the reader, will help keep me accountable to this goal, because I've tried before and failed. I really want to make a gradual improvement this time around, but I'll need help!
I suppose I should start with a brief update on what I've been up to these past two weeks. It's crazy that two weeks have already passed since I last posted! I'm definitely enjoying the summer. It's hot, but it's how summer should be (not like the summer I experienced in England last year lol)! Peter, my younger sister S, and I all graduated with our Master's degrees within six months of each other, so to celebrate, my parents took us to dinner at Peter Luger's last weekend. If you're not familiar with that name, it's a fairly expensive steakhouse (my parents had only been there twice before). But oh, the steak was sooooo good!! I've been keeping fairly busy with tutoring this summer, which is GREAT, because I was worried there would be a lull. I have several new students, some of whom plan to continue with me through the school year. Peter and I have also been quite the social butterflies as of late. Most of our weekends have been booked, but we like it that way, especially because we don't do much during the week.
I also have exciting things happening in the next couple of months! First, I'm seeing Queen Bey in concert for the first time in August!!! Still looking for a plus one because I don't want to drag Peter along hehe, so if you're interested in accompanying me, do let me know! Peter and I are also going on our first family vacation with my parents and sister in September to Daytona Beach in Florida! The best part?? It's only an hour from Disney World!! YASSSSS! I'm super pumped (especially because I didn't get to go on Space Mountain last year when we went to Disneyland Paris because the ride was broken down...not that I dwell on such things).
I mentioned earlier that I'd like to strive to be more at peace in life instead of being so quickly overwhelmed, which is actually a result of a sermon I heard recently. Two Sundays ago, our pastor discussed the fruit of the Spirit. I decided to ask Peter which fruit he thought I embodied well and which I need to work on. For those of you who are unfamiliar with them, they include the following: love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, and self-control. He said the three I currently embody well are love, goodness, and faithfulness. The two I need to work on are peace and patience. I knew it was going to be a difficult thing to hear (who actually likes receiving criticism?), but I decided to ask him both because I was genuinely curious what his answer would be and because he knows me better than anyone, so I naturally take his criticism very seriously. I also agreed with the ones he chose as my weakest points. I personally feel that I'm doing a disservice to the people around me if I don't strive to become a better person every day. While I often allow people's opinions of me to dictate what I do a little too much, to a certain extent, it is important to know how I'm perceived. If one person thinks I'm impatient, well, it's hard to tell how seriously I should take that opinion. I might keep it in mind but I won't necessarily allow that one critique to take over my life. If several people think I'm impatient, however, that's cause for concern. Interestingly enough, I've discovered that my patience tends to run out when I'm stressed out. For example, the other day, I was extremely crabby towards Peter, and after he asked me what was wrong a couple of times, I finally broke down and admitted that I was stressed out about time-sensitive issues (like getting onto his health insurance before our window of opportunity closes and trying to change my last name before my debit card expires next month so I don't have to pay for a replacement). Isn't that funny? Two of my weakest traits are actually connected to each other.
Anyway, despite the hustle and bustle of life and being newly married, I don't want to forget to take time for some serious introspection and figure out how to be the best version of myself. I can imagine the worst version of myself and, trust me, I want to be as far away from her as possible. But while I'm doing that, I also want to be celebrating the things I'm already good at! I'm glad to know that Peter thinks I'm good at loving him. That's something I hope that I can extend beyond our marriage, but I can pat myself on the back for loving him enough. On a related noted, I recently watched the new Netflix original Set It Up, a movie about two assistants that play matchmaker for their bosses in the hopes that their bosses will stop working them so hard (it's pretty hilarious). Something that comes up is the idea that "You like someone because of their good qualities. You love someone despite their flaws." I'm working on my "despite" list for myself. Peter originally liked me for being well-read and musically talented, among other things, but he now loves me despite the fact that I'm sometimes impatient and prone to being stressed out. Those aren't my only flaws, though, so here's to being a work in progress!
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